I love my job but somehow I'm not really proud of this job.
For me, The greatest part of modeling was that I could learn how to love myself. I had to go through many bad experiences to earn this important lesson. For example, I tortured my body by starving and throwing up, I’ve been frustrated by other people’s judgement, disrespectful treatment, depressed by comparing myself with others and hated myself, while desiring fame. I also saw how easily people could like me and throw me away at the same time.
I had to hide all these memories and moments somewhere inside of my mind. But it still came up in the form of depression. We’re used to not showing our feelings and so are models. But I think we have to. Otherwise these feelings become something else someday.
I love modeling. I do it because it was my choice. And I’m really happy I’ve learned how to love and respect myself finally after a long time, throughout many experiences. but i don't think I really needed to get my life lessons this way.
Models do not deserve to be disrespected. We are treated and consumed like products but still, We are humans.
Please do respect. 🏻