have you ever felt that pain, when you are sad about everything. when all you want is not growing up, not having to face the world. and you just want to cry, and call old friends, and tell them not to go. also,
when you realize you don't have anyone. and you're just laying here, wanting to scream and tell someone everything. or just simply talk. i'm sorry, i'm scared. i'm sad. i don't want to fail myself.
i don't want the people i love to die. i don't want my mom to die, neither my cousins, my sister, my father, my friends, and my pets.
i don't want to come back in the future and say, "oh look that's where i used to live". i don't want to get old and sick. i want my mom to hug me and kiss me in the forehead.
but at the same time i don't want to get stuck here. i want to live: i want to love, i want to travel, i want to study, i want to make mistakes, and learn, i want to have a life.