I try so hard to always smile and always seem happy, I don't feel like I as a person luckily enough to have a home, food, loving family and friends deserve to be sad. I feel like I don't have the right to sometimes let it all out because people are dealing with a lot harder stuff then me. But for some reason tonight it all got to much and I have been stressed out all afternoon about having to go to sleep tonight because i know it means i could lay here in bed for a long time thinking and I hate that. I came onto Instagram and the first thing I saw was Grace's (@lookbackswift ) edit of the clean speech.. for the last 10 minutes i have laid in bed just crying. That speech is something special , something no artist has ever done. On the 28th November 2015 when I was in a stadium with 76000 other people and T said the clean speech, i felt it was just me and her and like she was talking right to me... T literally gets me and I wish and wish and wish that one day I can hug her so tight and say thank you. I don't even know what I am writing anymore but after watching that edit I have realised that i have reached a breaking point where always trying to be happy and pretend like everything is okay is hurting me.. @taylorswift , sunshine I just want to say I love you and thank you for everything because if it wasn't for you, tonight I wouldn't have heard that speech or be able to write this down somewhere I love you
Sorry guys for all that I just needed a safe place to write @taylorswift#taylorswift#swifties#swiftiesunite#swiftiesforever#love#beauty#music#fashion#style#hair#ts6#swiftiesfollowtrain#l4l#taylurking#theswiftietag#1989#red#speaknow#fearless
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What are you engaged this hot day in? // Чем занимаетесь в этот жаркий день?