⠀⠀⠀⠀✘⠀⠀⠀┊ Ce soir c'est séance pecs
My fucking god qui a inventé cette séance ?
Si je croise le mec qui a fait ça, c'est sur il aura des problèmes
Le petit singe que je suis progresse doucement sur les mains, j'annonce sous peu une video de mes bêtises
Bonne journée mes chatons
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Дорогие наши мужчины, с днем защитника Отечества!
Желаю быть любимыми, быть надежной опорой для ваших близких, и никогда не унывать! Какая бы ситуация не произошла, помните, вы у руля!
Flexing vs relaxed, because there's a big difference.
I feel sooo much smaller and even though I know my muscles are less full from the big reduction in food, it's not as extreme as I think it is, because my measurements on my legs are near exactly the same! (except directly under my glutes is about an inch smaller). I genuinely thought I had lost about 2 inches everywhere from looking in the mirror. I know that sounds extreme. But your mind's perception can really get screwed up and see things that are different from reality. I have to tell myself what I see isn't real. I've had to do this for years while overcoming my disorders and seeing a fat person while I knew I really wasn't. Now it's latched itself on to thinking thoughts like, "Have your muscles shrunk? Have all those months of hard work been washed away within a matter of days?" It's work to stay in touch with reality when you have a skewed perception. I thought I was going to prove my husband wrong by pulling out that measuring tape (because he'd been listening to me say how my butt had shrunk and trying to convince me that it looked the same...poor baby) but it was me who was in for a shock when the number was the same. Just being honest here. My mind does get -really- wonky still when I don't get enough calories. I can't wait for my appetite to fully return and get to a better place mentally. I'm trying my hardest, but without the proper fuel and nutrients, it's impossible to totally hold it together. To be anything less than positive is hard on me (and obviously on anybody who has to be around me). I used to get comfortable with negative emotions and sink deep into them with not much desire to pull myself out, but now I recognize that it isn't the real me to feel low. Not an ounce of me enjoys it and I'm ready to feel like the happy person I've grown to become. Even if I'm emotional and crying easily, I know I need more nutrition to keep me in check and that everything will be okay once I can feed my brain. Reality vs perception. Everything is okay even if in the moment it doesn't feel like it. Maybe this will make sense to someone who's currently or has been undercarbed, haha.