Building my Empire #brickbybrick#1dayatatime
Im a Creator God never left me to suffer...I make nothing into something always especially with his guidance....I was bless with a gift in a beautiful way...And I promise to my father above I will execute every plan or blueprint put before me, multiply, spread and share his love and blessing during my growth on this land thru #youngfitclub and #hoodbrothersfoundation #rebuildingourfallingyouths
I believe this to the core, people see you. Even if you don't feel like they do. Especially if you're in a position to set and example I feel it's super important to be genuine, look for the light in others as well as let God's light shine through us all.
My best and most loyal student and I had great conversation before class tonight. When he came in, he asked how things are, and I told him that I got to take a CrossFit class yesterday. He asked how I liked it and I said that it wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be...and that I was feeling a bit of insecurity about my body. I said that I know people often don't view me as a super fit athlete because of how I look. He gave me a sympathetic look and I continued by admitting that I was upset that I was underestimated and given weights MUCH lighter than what I'm capable of lifting. Even after I upped my weight, I wish I went heavier.
I said I don't know if I was upset from their opinions, or upset that I actually cared about what they thought. Then, I said I know I'm incredibly fit, but I struggle with with my nutrition.
After I hit my goal weight, I haven't been consistent with my nutrition, which is THE BIGGEST component of maintaining body composition. I haven't been happy with my composition for a while now. I want to get back to where I was when I hit my goal, and perhaps even get more shredded. Maybe even consult with @realdropp about taking care of my loose skin once I hit my goal again.
My insides are healthy AF. I feel good about what my body is capable of, but for a while, I wanted that to show on the outside. I'm more fit and than I was when I hit my goal and I want that to reflect in my musculature and physique.
The big struggle has ALWAYS been nutrition.
I work diligently on self-acceptance and permitting myself to be exactly where I am now. But I feel like I also owe it to myself to once again see my reflection and go, "HOLY SHIT!!!" because the hot woman looking back is ME.
Loving the process🏻 but in saying that prep is hard but what makes it even harder is life outside of prep, not just the 2hour gym sessions, low calories, and prepping food. But maintaining a lifestyle with family and trying to balance it out. Then to add to the mix working 2 jobs to save for our trip to Thailand a week after comp @shonaechasee I'll be honest it's not all shirtless photos and smiles it's hectic🏻 but it's important to realise that great things aren't achieved when it's easy, great things are achieved through the struggle and hard times were your character is built and strengthened #letsgo#chasing#strongbody#strongermind
Brick by brick and house by house and thing by thing, this present is becoming our now and don't you know that all I want to do is come down from this mountain and feel this still? This life is so much work.
(Sad.) (Nothing is bad.)
I'm taking inventory of what we've got and what I'm finding are a lot of falsehoods, swimming pools, and idols. Plans for totem poles and crystals. Extraneous notebooks and thesauruses to boot.
We've got a background of mountains but none in our hands. We've got confetti in our pockets but we're too tired to let it go.