I am depressed because my father, for the past 4 years has picked his girlfriend over his children.
I am depressed because my mother is the one who deals with all my shit.
I am depressed because I am not pretty enough, not smart enough, not artistic enough, simply not enough.
I am depressed because I feel that I am not here.
I am depressed because I lie to those I love most.
I am depressed because I don't know how to love myself
and that I find the scariest. You see I rely on others' opinions of me, to form who I am and what I think of myself. I do not know who am I. I do not know what a truly love to do. But I am here, in the body that I put down too often, feeling alone despite the fact that i know I am not. I'm stuck in an in between; I know that sure as hell do not want to die, but I also do not wish to live. I want a restart button, one where I wouldn't be such a burden, one where my mother could have white picket fence, one where my older half brothers could have had our father in their lives, one where my greatest enemy is myself.
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