Be bold enough to use your voice, brave enough to listen to your heart, and strong enough to live the life you’ve always imagined.
PLEASE READ Underneath each smile and moment of joy is a sliver of sadness; for without pain we can't understand the meaning of happiness and joy.
At the age of 15 I attempted suicide because of events that lead up to feeling unworthy to be standing around those amongst me. I was sexually abused at 11, raped at 15, and grew up in a household where physical abuse was the form of discipline. For a solid 5 years after that I was on and off meds and in countless therapy sessions to treat depression. I felt lifeless and quite emotionless trying to cover up the heartaches.
From day to day, I still find myself fighting these emotions. Some days it's an easier fight than others and there are those moments where I find myself too weak to fight. In those days I want to crawl under the covers, drown myself in my thoughts, and close my eyes until each one goes away. I know that this isn't that normal happy post everyone wants to see and expects, but this is one that is very very real to me. One that I need to just get out there and write.
Recently, I've received a number of comments saying "I wish I had your strength." "I wish I was as brave as you." "You're so confident, I hope to be that one day." Please know I wasn't born with it, it didn't come easy for me. I walked through a fire and was molded by it. The paths we took in life, the decisions we make, the experiences; they all lead us to this very moment. So here I go, uncovering another chapter, turning another page, to simply live my truth.
I don’t want or need you to feel sorry for me, I don’t even want an apology for what I’ve been through. What I hope you can gain from me sharing this, is a little bit of peace and inner strength. We share our stories of vulnerability because this is the only way we heal our past together. This is the only way we gain strength from one another. All I want you to feel is empowerment and the urge to say, “If she could overcome all this and live the life of her dreams, I CAN TOO AND I WILL.” #betterthanyesterdaystrongerfortomorrow#relentlesslybeautifullife#twloha#linkofhearts#highlightreal
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In case you needed a reminder this morning... remember that you are always loved. xo
Tag someone you love who can also use this important reminder.
Real faith is holding blessings in one hand and suffering in the other, and trusting God to use both to accomplish His will. [Ben Dailey]
Hope today fills you with real faith and trust. xo
Today, just be YOU.
And that is enough. xo
He said, "Let today be a day where you take nothing for granted. For life is fleeting, fragile and precious and can change on a whim. Say all the things you really want to say to your loved ones today, say the things you would regret should they pass on and your words remain unspoken. Rejoice, for you and they are alive today- and should you or them pass on to unknown shores, rejoice even more for you have a wonderful love story to tell."
This life is fragile and precious indeed, so hold it and care for it with all your heart. xo #youareenough#yourstorymatters
empower. inspire. dream. what's your motto? @linkofhearts collection challenges you to be you!
May you find your moment of grace today. And wishing you a beautiful, restful Sunday. xo
Anyone else wishing and dreaming of this pool in their backyard?? 🏻
Hope you get to splash and plunge in cool water this weekend! Happy Fri-yay!!
Yesterday started just like most days in the last few weeks. Nothing bad, just feeling uninspired and unmotivated. I went about my day anyway, tried to focus and get some work done.
Then the day started to unfold with little graces of life blessings, the little things that warm your heart, you know?! ... like thoughtful, deep and insightful conversations with a few people I really care about and respect. Then I had an appointment with my new fertility doctor. While things are still a bit overwhelming, I started to feel hopeful.
Today, things just started to make sense and it became more clear to me what my priorities are this season, and what truly matters to me. So, in this moment, I will hold on to these glimpses of hope and I will trust that things will unfold the way they are meant to happen... One step at a time. One day at a time.
If you're going through something right now, I pray that you will be blessed with patience, strength and a glimpse of HOPE- to carry you through no matter what.
How about you? Was there a little moment in your day today that might have given you a peek of hope?
Always trust and believe in yourself, because that is enough. YOU are enough. And that is all that matters.
If you never did, you should. These things are fun and fun is good. [Dr. Seuss]
Hope your summer fun continues this holiday weekend... and make sure you do something that makes your soul happy. ;) xo
I know I’ve said this before, but it really has been a hard season for me. So hard, that I have not even been able to write here or share anything on a consistent basis. I try so hard every day to write something or just share anything, but it hasn’t been easy with this fog that continues to follow me. But I’m staying hopeful and doing everything I can… getting help with my new therapy sessions, taking care of myself and seeking other alternative ways to assist myself in this healing process and #infertilityjourney, starting to do the things I enjoy most, and lastly, following my heart.
Following your heart does not mean only your dreams, visions, ideas and work. It also means following and honoring what your heart desires, especially when it comes to #selflove and #selfcare. These days might have been challenging for me, but I’m still doing my best to give grace and honor my heart. Dreams and plans for either personal or work also come with disappointments, frustration and heartache. I’m realizing, that is life and it’s all part of the journey. So, I will continue to take it one day at a time, I will keep following my heart and I look forward to the great things ahead and all the possibilities.
That said, this is overdue but we’re doing a #giveaway! I will be at the @wildheartsconference on July 20-21 in Brooklyn, NY, and I am so looking forward to it. They have been gracious enough to invite me as one of their panelists and I cannot wait! These ladies are also kind and so generous to spread the love, I have partnered with them and the @wildheartsconference to give away ONE FREE TICKET to the conference!!
. @wildheartsconference is going to be filled with amazing speakers and panel sessions, and attendees who thrive to keep dreaming and keep passion alive in everything that they do. Join us #brooklyninthesummer and let’s #getreal and have loads of fun!
How to enter and win the conference ticket:
Simply comment below and tag a woman/girlfriend who inspires you and let them know how much they mean to you. Ends Friday, June 30th at 7pm, PST. Winner will be randomly selected (using random.org) and announced thereafter. Good luck! xo
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Mental Health Awareness Month may be over but we continue to raise awareness for mental illness as our core mission. We will keep talking about #thegreenelephantintheroom, because the first step in addressing #mentalillness and silencing the stigma is talking about the "elephant in the room."
For every purchase of an elephant piece, we will donate 25% of the proceeds to @bringchangetomind . I would really like to donate a total of $1,000, and we are up to $700 so far, thanks to all of you who have supported our campaign last month. Please help me reach our goal and make this happen, to provide some funding for high school and university programs that engage students to erase the stigma surrounding mental illness.
Together, we can make a difference.
Together, we can fight the stigma against mental illness.
Together, we can be the voice.
Together, we can do anything.
Let's talk about the elephant in the room, and tag that someone whom you think this message could use this support.
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It is well with my soul.
Hope you're taking the time to rest today and just be.
Today, this is my truth. No sugarcoating here. I used a beautiful, inspiring photo because I’m afraid I have no words of encouragement for you today.
This season has been rough. Just too many things going on at the same time. I want to have fun and just loosen up a little but my bouts of anxiety and depression won't let me. I see all these Instagram posts and stories and I find myself wondering why everyone else seems to be enjoying the beginning of summer, while here I am, in deep thought with mixed emotions. I don't feel sad or anything. I almost feel numb and still. I feel overwhelmed. This #infertilityjourney really sucks. I feel confused. I am hopeful about the idea of possibly getting pregnant but scared to face the facts, that even a fertility treatment at this point may only have a 5-10% chance of success. So, how do I even process that? The thought of other "options" to have a baby are not even on my radar, yet people or doctors seem to feel obliged to let me know that there are options. Yes, I know there are…but I’m just not there yet.
And my work, #linkofhearts. What do I do next? All my planning seems to be on hold because bigger decisions have yet to be made in the family department.... I feel torn. My heart feels confused. My dreams for #linkofhearts are on hold. Why can't I do everything at the same time? How can you simply have faith and let go, when so much is at stake? When you really want something, how far do you go in taking risks and chances? When do you draw the line?
I don't want to sound sad nor depressing here, but this is just life. These are my questions, these are the thoughts I’ve been pondering. This is my truth and I am not going to pretend that I’m in some kind of happy, la-la land when I feel beaten down. Today, this is my story and I’m sharing it with you in case you're going through a rough season as well. This is my truth and I am embracing it.
What is your truth today? I hope you get to sit with it and face it and embrace it no matter what. Just be...coz I’m here for you too, just being. xo
Let's look forward to sunny days and be grateful for brighter rainbows... happy Fri-yay!
It’s been awhile since I posted here because I have been trying to cope with some personal decisions. This seems to be a season of transition and change, as I hear many others are going through the same thing. I’ve been planning some big changes with #linkofhearts for the Fall and I feel very excited about them. However, my heart feels torn due to something more personal and I am left confused.
In the last couple of months, anxiety has taken over me for many reasons... As some of you may know, we’ve been trying to get pregnant in the last 4 years. We got pregnant 2 years ago and suffered through a miscarriage. A year later, we went through fertility treatments 2 months in a row, only to be left with an empty heart once again. As we celebrated our 4 year anniversary last month, we started talking again about what we’re going to do next…and this leaves me now with my arms wide open, waiting for God’s grace.
. #InfertilitySucks! That's the truth and no one likes to talk about it. My body does not like any medication at all, so another fertility treatment means, fear of possibly getting sick again – gaining more weight – more health risks … which means - also slowing down my work with #linkofhearts (which has become my true passion). This is where all my fear and anxiety are coming from. And in the spirit of #gettingreal, slowing down work brings this "fear of failure", on top of everything else. I’m worried that if I slow down my business, there won’t be any chance for me to grow and become successful. I know it is not the case, but you can imagine my worries as a new business owner, right?
With all these mixed emotions, I know one thing for sure though… family first, and work later… So, I made a decision. I am choosing to embrace my fear and anxiety. That does not mean I am free of them. It just means I’m graciously accepting things just the way they are, and I plan to take it one-day-at-a-time, with faith in my heart.
If you’re on the same boat as I am, I pray that we both get through it all and faith will get us there. And I will keep praying for your courage, wisdom and strength... Now, tag someone who can also use a dose of faith & encouragement.
And I wish you many more, and everything that you deserve. xo
Weekends are for rest, fun, adventure, and lots of self care including #boringselfcare like cleaning and tidying up. ;)
Take some time for yourself today and make sure you do something that makes your soul happy.