I really wish I was capable of making big decisions. There are people in my life that no longer make me happy. They're toxic to me, but I can't make the decision to disassociate myself with them because I fear that I'll regret it. I know what's going on IS an issue, but I feel as though the only kind of decision making I'm doing are impulsive ones (if that makes sense). I talked to a long time friend who is a really great listener and adviser and he sees it from the outer view. He also believes there's a problem and he suggested I discuss these things with the toxic people and maybe find a solution. Personally, I don't think I want to do that or at least not just yet. Agshjdk I'm conflicted. I'm also struggling to find the motivation and reasons behind the thing I used to enjoy so much.. sigh. Anyways, movies are great distractions from reality, which is why I like going to the theater (: what's your favorite movie?
Dan Ia mengetahui apa yang ada di darat dan di laut; dan tidak gugur sehelai daun pun melainkan Ia mengetahuinya, dan tidak gugur sebutir bijipun dalam kegelapan bumi dan tidak gugur yang basah dan yang kering, melainkan (semuanya) ada tertulis di dalam kitab (Lauh Mahfuz) yang terang nyata.