cr : @thedevoco
this is so beautiful !! i've been down really often recently. from me making mistakes and unintentionally hurting my bestfriend. it kinda sucks because i don't think this friendship would patch up any soon. and this friendship means a lot to me because she's more like a sister, than a friend to me. and it's really making me feel really guilty and makimg me wonder if i'm really that toxic as a friend...
i really don't know what to do. and i kinda burst out into tears while telling my mom all the problems that i've kept from her yesterday... and the mother i thought that would never understand, understood me. i was so thankful. i give all thanks to God.
i'm using this quiet moment where i'm literally left with no friends to soak in God's word and do some reflection on my part. Well... actually no, i'm not really friendless because Jesus is my friend. He is my father, my bestfriend & my one and only savior.
everytime when i pray, i just feel this unexplainable peace. my problems aren't completely washed away but there's so much more peace inside of me. i'm surprised that i still can complete daily activities because for the past few years of people betraying my trust and making me feel unwanted, i thought this time, it would be even worse. but thank God, i'm not dying or anything. I'm just upset. I just hope my bestfriend gets better and that in the future, i won't be that toxic & negative friend to anyone else. Instead, i would be the positive friend :) i'm just hoping for the best but of course, i know God has got my back and he'll help me. If you're facing situations that are worse or just as bad as mine, trust me, the Lord Jesus hears your cries. Cry to him. Talk to him. He wants to help you.
god bless xx ilyall !! #staystrong#recovery#selfcare#mentalhealth#positive#positivity#lonely#bullied#ashamed#insecure#bulimia#anxiety#depression#selfharm#instagram#quotes#inspiration#happiness#happythoughts#jesus#jesuschrist#strong#youmatter#selflove#sloths#safezone#safespace#relaxation
It is. You are.
Trust. Accept. Embody.
Today has felt frustrating and I have been irritated and probably not as productive as I would have liked...
Instead of dwelling on it, i meditated, went for a walk and accepted that today it was enough to just show up and do what I could.
You can't be everything to everyone all the time. It's just not possible.
We need to give ourselves a break, take our foot off the accelerator just a little and give ourselves some damn credit!
And love. Mostly love.
I am in love with this - Thanks @pimtexts