I am extremely appreciative of having support in everything I feel and do. I may not have spent my last few birthdays doing anything but playing my Xbox but I'm always surrounded by some of the people I love and that's more than I could ask for. Plus this is my first birthday without breast tissue which is euphoric!
Clevedon Beach 🌤
Went down to a cold but quaint little beach with @r.byg today
Can't believe I'm 20 in 6 days man. I still look and feel like I'm 16 I also can't believe I had top surgery whilst I was still a teenager!
Making HUGE anxiety progress! Worked at a @scentopiauk event last night for the first time since 2014!
I got my hair cut professionally for the first time as Elliot and the first time in 8 years today! It was ridiculously nerve wracking but it feels so nice!
I've never enjoyed the sun as much as I have this year 🤔
Awful quality but positive transitioning regardless.
Day 121 - I'm getting there
Haha! Saw this going around Facebook and couldn't resist!
I picked the most flattering photo for 2013 I could find, but in reality I was pretty overweight and on my way to obesity in that photo plus the 2010 photo is the first and last time I wore makeup willingly as an adolescent 🙄 #thankspuberty !!
I'm finally on good terms with XS tight tops
Good afternoon 🏻
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My proper "reveal" was 17 days post-op because 9 days after #topsurgery I still had open parts so I had to be bandaged up again for a week or so. My routine: At least 1/2 times a day I will do a deep 5-10min massage across my scars with either Palmers Cocoa Butter or ID Millennium 100% Silicone Lube. When I go out with the intent to be topless, I wear ScarGuard Silicone Tape (You shouldn't have your scars in direct sunlight for at least 18 months or so) - I try not to wear it often because Jesus Christ it hurts to pull off.
The 100% silicone lube is definitely the best one. It keeps my skin/scars moist, smooth and I see the scar best results with it.
My scars are already very light in places and not stretched, I'm extremely hopefully for how minimal they will look in a year. 🏻
#TDOV ... Be you, be proud, stand with your brothers and sisters and let the world know we are a fighting force. Do it for the boys who are girls and girls who are boys who can't, for those who are no longer with us because of their gender. Stay safe.
So today I found out that someone who claimed to be close to me, called this self-less beauty controlling??? Lmao okay sweetie. Keep your opinions to yourself and your friends.
Ruby has been a rock in my life.
Spending her time and money to come and see me because I could barely leave the house due to anxiety?
Watching me struggle to do such basic things like walk the dogs around the block but not enabling me to avoid it, but not forcing me to do it- encouraging me to try it.
Not judging me for anything. Not my music or TV tastes, not my body shape, not my mental state... nothing.
Holding me and calming me down when I really tried to fight my way out of top surgery because of anxiety?
Constantly telling me she's proud of me and constantly trying to persuade me to try new things? Like taking me out in her car at ridiculous times at night, down the same roads again and again just to get me to feel comfortable with her driving.
Trusting me enough to tell me her past, to tell me her troubles, to introduce me to her gorgeous family despite the fact I'm different and probably not mentally the kind of person you'd want to show to family.
Not leaving me despite the fact we've gone out like "normal" couples do all the time about 10 times in the 2 years we've been together.........
Jesus, if this is what a controlling relationship looks like then you are all need to find yourself a "controlling" partner and mind yall business cause you're not my mom. xoxo
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COME ON #RPDR9 LETS GET SICKENING!!! - I don't know why the fuck I did this but I can't stop laughing. And if you can't laugh at yourself how the hell you gonna laugh at somebody else.
⏱ -1 day vs 101 days post #topsurgery ⏱
Right now, I'm just trying to work on my physical health and I feel like my work is finally starting to show.
Just remember, the only person you need to justify yourself to, is yourself. Take everything with a pinch of salt and a smile because people will think they are helping you when they are really hindering you. Try and just brush it off and thank yourself for being patient, despite the fact you want to smash your head into a wall and yell at everyone who pretends they understand but just makes things worse behind your back. Always try to see it from all sides before you jump the gun and make it worse for you and your friends/family 🤗
I'm proud of who I am becoming (in my Calvins)
I'm fed up of people deciding for me whether I am masculine or not?!? The amount of people that support trans* but say to me "you're obviously not truly a man because you didn't want nipples and all men have nipples" ....... if me not having nipples makes me that un-masculine then you're gonna have a heart attack when you hear what's going on under these Calvins!!!! I have come MILES from where I began. I was an obese, miserable, "feel sorry for me" kind of kid and I'm PROUD to see myself grow and become a better person, physically and mentally. My (lack of) nipples does not change the fact that I am a trans-masculine man thnx. xoxo
🏻 Constant progression 🏻
⏱ Left to right: ⏱
- Pre-T (182 pounds) - 13 months on T (126 pounds) - 25 months on T (125 pounds)
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