Two months without stepping foot in the gym and I feel fantastic! Don't get me wrong, I'm so ready to go beast mode beginning today (or tomorrow, we'll see), but I can say for sure that I've come a looooooong way from the obsessive compulsive behavior and way of thinking that I torchured myself with over years past. No longer can crazy, self-made up rules dictate how I feel about myself or my life. No more psychological twists or bends of sick mental state can touch me now. I can safely say that I am well beyond obsessing over food, exercise, or how I feel about my self worth or how my body looks. This doesn't mean that I let myself fall to the wayside, either; it doesn't mean that I'll finish the rest of the ice cream or on the flip side not allow myself to have seconds if I'm still hungry. It means that I love myself enough to find a balance and be cool with that. It means that I realize my worth is not found in demanding some type of control nor is it in the messages that society and popular media push on me. It means that also, I now have the personal freedom to harness my own bad-assery and forge forward in that with all my might. Finally, I realize that I am the true captain of my ship, and that my own individuality is my weapon, and my passion is my True North. I have broken free of my prisons, because yes love, there are many. I am beautiful. I am free. And I am powerful beyond measure. And the light in me sees the light in you!!! You are also the captain of your ship! What ropes bind you down? Where would you like to sail? I am here to tell you that it is possible; everything and anything is possible to those who seek freedom from personal bondage. You know what binds you. And you know what will free you. It's quite the journey, but oh my god it's so worth it.
I'm having a fml with food week, I think it's because I've not been to the gym (not by choice) and it's made me forget that I've worked hard to get results. Hopefully I've not done too much damage and I am back to the gym as of Monday hopefully! 🏽🏽
The continuous struggle. Baby girl isn't feeling well and only wants to lay on mommy all day long. This mommy doesn't mind that one bit, anything to make her feel better. All us mothers always put our children before ourselves. Trying to figure out at what point I may be able to sneak in a workout, but at the same time telling myself it is ok if I miss one day. Being on a weightloss journey plays with your head. You feel guilty when you don't workout, however we have to remember life happens. So for now, sleep away my baby girl! #momlife#sickbaby#mommyshugs#enjoyingeverysecond#gymguilt#lifebalance