This constant longing for him makes me crazy. You want to grab something but you just can not. This icy incoherence makes me sick. One is trapped in a devil's circle. One has the urge to show that one is still there, but it comes nothing. Why do you always do it again and again? Why do you run after someone who just does not make you happy in this moment? Why do you fall in love with people who ignore? You want answers and just do not get, and do not know whether you will ever get them. What is right and what is wrong?!?! Some people do not care, some do not. You know how they smell, how they laugh, how they talk, what they throw you for a spell to your head when you talk again, how they touch you, how they give you the last time a kiss on the cheek because you Lipstick on it and one last time out of the car waving .. But it should not have been the last time!